Psalm 27 – Living Goodness

I think I should just do this Psalm a Day thing once a month so I can preclude my post with some sad excuse of always not remaining fully committed to this little project and endeavour of mine.

Nonetheless as a sort of prelude to this post as to why the following verse sticks out to me so can be attributed to my generally growing disconcertment with living my life now. It’s like if I’m not too careful with my steps I may end up living the safe, secure and comfortable life that I may very well be entitled too.

I do not doubt for one moment I am extremely blessed. Though I may (recently more frequently) complain about my relatively low pay, I know that I still am blessed being in a position that is secured without too much effort.

Yet I still think that is seemingly so pointless.

I’m going down this path of having a secure job, house, wife and 1.5 children one day. Live till I’m 90 and die probably quite happy and satisfied…. with comfort.

One thing that still gives met his faint glimmer of hope is that I know without a shadow of doubt that really all I need is God.

¹³ I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the LORD
In the land of the living. (NKJV)

I like it how David highlights that he knows he couldn’t have done it on his own without believing in God. And not just believing in God to show goodness to him now in this life. But in the next.

Why I say next?

My logical inference is this. We are living in a world that is doomed to die, it’s fallen and death abounds. And well, the assumption that heaven is the land of living, and that’s all David needed to continue to live this life on earth, thus actually bringing a part of the goodness that which comes from God.

And so for me, even if nothing ever works out for me by human standard, or if my life is filled with the recently popular internet meme of FML (google it, I in no way support this, even though it may be tongue in cheek…), regardless of that I know that I am secured in God’s living goodness!

Holding On

There are other things out there, seemingly better alternatives compared to the current circumstance that makes me wonder why am I still in it.

Was I blessed and fortunate that I have what I have now?

With the upcoming burden soon to constrain and limit, I never ever had to be so wary and mindful. My thoughts are consumed with how best I can circumvent it and degrade this metaphorical yoke to nonexistence in the quickest and most efficient way.

I could reach out for what is out there, that on paper is better than what I have now. But the future of it will hit a glass ceiling.

Where I am now, seemingly dead end, trudging along whilst feeling underappreciated, I know the upside is potentially limitless, and that is the faint glimmer of light that has enraptured my mind’s eye.

I’m banking on this last card. But is it really the last? If what is played from here on end does not bode well, then yes, quite possibly.

For now I will not heed that which is beckoning me, instead, with trepid determination, I’m holding on.

Psalm 25 – Unashamed

Under the anonymity that is the internet, I may (or may not) convey an openess about my faith.

Take that guise away, transplant me to the real world, and when topics of religion and faith come out, I stutter. Not as much as I use to, but I still get that heightened sense of nervousness of uncertainty to what “social consequences” can be attributed to my belief.

Then verses 2, 3 and 20 from this Psalm comes along and messes me up and reminds me why I shouldn’t be ashamed.

² O my God, I trust in You;
Let me not be ashamed;
Let not my enemies triumph over me.
³ Indeed, let no one who waits on You be ashamed;
Let those be ashamed who deal treacherously without cause.

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²⁰ Keep my soul, and deliver me;
Let me not be ashamed, for I put my trust in You.

To stand unashamed of my love and passion for God requires great trust on my part on Him.

It is also true then that if I say I trust God with all I am, I cannot hide it.

Bear with me as I may have probably committed some inferential fallacies. But I don’t care.

All that is important to me now is that, trusting God and being proud of it goes hand in hand. And in my circumstances now, I want to, will and am trusting God that He will continue to be the source of blessings in my life and I will unashamedly be a living testimony of it.

After all, it can’t be THAT hard if He’s the one who’s leading my ways unashamedly.

Psalm 24 – Possession

Been meaning to post up on this Psalm for a very long time….

I suspect it must be close to 2 months now since the last post

Anyway, been hard trying to garner some sort of insight from this Psalm each time I’ve tried working on it. Especially after talking to Ben a few days ago on how they had to preach a mini sermonette on this in their discipleship group, and listening to him expounding on it blew me away. Which also meant me running the risk of ripping his sermon

Till just then I re-read it again and verse one was what spoke to me and what I’m going through right now.

¹ The earth is the LORD’s, and everything in it,
the world, and all who live in it;

I know this already. Heck, this truth was even released in church earlier today (albeit different passage). And when I heard it, I just shrugged it aside as nothing new. I know it already. I really detest knowing so much about church and Christianity sometimes.

But I am blessed with abundance to have never been in a position of desperate need and want.

This verse speaks to me now simply because it’s a gentle reminder as to who that source of abundant blessing is. And though I’m about to embark on some potentially financial draining endeavours, which has caused me to reel in frustration as I count my money, revealing how pitiful my savings are and dismayal my stewardship is, I can still trust God.

Because my possession is ultimately His.

My only real possession is Him.

And by simple inference that I’m on this earth, I am His.

Time Keeping

Lost track of time during worship today.

Didn’t realise we went on for 45 minutes on just one song and pretty much one chord progression.

Sure didn’t seem like it.

Oh and it’s not something I do innately well anyway.

Ask Clement.