November 27, 2008 • 11:50 5
今天是你的生日! 所以我一定需祝你生日快乐!
二十一岁了!要做个怪孩子!
我真的很感谢主我育这么好的朋友每次都听我讲费话!
我希望你命令长长…
为了我可以做一双非常厉害的耳朵.
对不起我的华语没有那么顺,不可以写一个美丽的”信” 
不过我还是要在来祝你生日快乐!
Bah my chinese is terrible!
Hope this coupled with my err somewhat nearly inapprorpirate gift will more than suffice as a 21st Birthday greeting
-Jemmy
November 26, 2008 • 11:02 7
As one can see from my dismal lack of entries over the past few weeks, it is blatantly obvious that it can be attributable to my lack of marked insight into the occurrence of daily life. Which is why I am extremely surprised that I’ve just cracked my busiest day mark yesterday with lots of page views that I have no idea where they were coming from. My last record was set when I was capitalising on the release of Google Chrome and got quite a few hits from people googling that.
Maybe all these hits came from Angel’s dryma(godmother), Jean I believe it is, as Angel told me. When Angel pointed out Jean’s positive response to what I thought was one of my more slap shop post on SFTW (then again this would be my second one 
), it elated me for the night! Thanks Jean! And I think that if I was to put a picture up, it will mar the illusion of mysteriosity 
Just by the way, go check out Man-days’ Right Hand Man whilst we’re on the topic of SFTW 
Regardless of the existence of insight over the past couple of weeks, I really just have not had the time to sit down and blog. I’m tired. I probably got more rest over my assignment/exam period. This is due in part to because everybody has finished their exams and possibly going overseas really soon, so capitalising on the abundance of free time post-exams by having lots of gatherings, this and that. But the only difference is that I don’t get the opportunity to revel in that same frivolity that everyone has to go gallivanting about. I was already in full time work even before exams, 10-6 everyday, and it’s extremely draining.
Draining because I just want to do what I want to do. All I need is a week all to myself, not dictated by someone else, completely in control of when, what and how I want to do things. But that said, as my life is planned around an extremely tight social schedule at the moment, I feel like my social capital has runned well past its reserved. I’m quite sick of most social interactions despite how much I yearn for it. I’m a walking paradoxical oxymoron.
There are just some things about the myriad of friendships and the social interactions maze that I’m not comfortable with. I look to some and I feel extremely envious as to why I don’t share the same sort of benefits despite my own length and I suppose strength of friendship with others. Thanks to you who knows who you are for listening to a glimpse of my insecurity. There is more. But I do not intend to break down this huge facade. Not yet. Bah my insecurities can be painfully obvious sometimes.
Maybe that’s why I’m trying to grow facial hair! Yes I know it looks terrible especially because of how scanty and sparse it is. and No I will not shave it, I want to see what it looks like when I don’t shave, especially since I haven’t cut my hair in nearly a year! Maybe I should take a Nazerite vow… but then I don’t think I could permanently lay off the alcohol.
Rest assured my dear readers that despite my lack of insight at this point in time, it was quite relaxing and somewhat fulfilling to type this up. Maybe that’s an insight on its own. Nonetheless, I will be resurrecting the Psalm a day journey sometime very soon, once everything else has been cleared up, and this blog will be synonymous to insightfulness!
Filed under: Life
November 20, 2008 • 1:33 7
Yesterday (okay maybe two days ago) was one iconic day.
It was the day where I bid farewell to a culmination of 16 freaking years of formal education!
That was it! My final paper, and it was extremely anti-climatic in one sense. Anti-climatic because the paper was crap, and was delayed/postponed by one week. Many of my friends have been exposed to my barrage of complaints against those students who saw to the delay of the paper because it was too close to the first one.
And so when I finally sat my one week late paper, I already knew that the extra week did not benefit me in anyway, rather it wasted an entire week where I was mopping around not doing anything productive because I had to “study”. One look at the paper, and I picked the questions that only really required some common sense and a little knowledge in the area to answer, thus if it was the day after the first one, I would have probably answered the exact same questions. This left me feeling pretty annoyed compared to my first one which I completely pwned!
Nonetheless, even as I finished and walked out, the reality of finishing didn’t quite sink in. I was indifferent.
But as I started to make my way to the tavern, the emotions of it all started to culminate and I felt tears welling up in my eyes. I didn’t cry, not because I’m a manly man, but because it was not like I was overwhelmed. Instead it was just this huge culmination of a giant burden that is finally released after 16 years.
I’m still not over it! 16 YEARS
My God!
Unfortunately I’m not able to fully enjoy the seemingly amazing sense of freedom because now I’m working fulltime. I just want for a week of no commitments. Doing whatever the heck I want. Especially just practice music more intensely, continue with my writings, complete my backlog of games.
I guess it will just have to keep culminating until I can find the day to release and relieve myself!
p/s I think this post is extremely poorly written, but I really can’t be bothered right now let alone edit it, it just sounds terrible in my head as I finish it, but I don’t care not in the mood BAH HAHAAHHHA
sigh this sounds exactly like those blogs that I despise
Filed under: Uncategorized
November 12, 2008 • 12:21 9
November 4, 2008 • 23:45 0
No, I have not joined the elusive mile high club membership. And for those who do not know what it is, I urge you to not google it in an effort to protect your innocence. This post is titled as such simply because I am typing this post on the plane ride back to Perth from my whirlwind few days in Sydney.
I would prefer to be typing this on the more conducive Windows Live Writer, or even Microsoft Word 2008. But by ways of the MacLife, I am using Apple’s Pages as part of their iWork suite. Nothing wrong with it, just that I’m not accustomed to the user interface which I shall remain nonchalant about. Hopefully, as I slowly wean myself onto this program because of a new venture I am embarking which I may or may not decided to write about as and when I get to it on this post, I will grow more comfortable and even know how to work my way around as effectively as I do MSWord. Heck maybe I should even use this opportunity to learn how to type with a Dvorak layout for my keyboard instead of the standard QWERTY, now that will take some serious effort!
As I peer out the window and gaze in awe at the magnificent sunset that lay before me, I cannot but smile in quiet satisfaction to what a good day it has been so far, let alone this short 4-5 days escape to Sydney. If I have not gushed on about it enough, the food and company that I have reveled in over the past few days has made this trip very memorable, distracting the negatives that is the crowded mess Sydney is. But the one facet of this trip that made it exceptional, was the closeness experienced with God, and the clarity in exciting things He has revealed to me over the past few days.
I highlight once again without shame that this year God has slowly unfurled key aspects and issues for me to appropriate or overcome respectively. The overarching one has to deal with the Word. Even before I left for Sydney, I had this sense that God was going to reveal fresh and new things to me, hence why I brought my MacBook along in anticipation to capture what He will reveal to me. This was further amplified as I galavanted across the city with Hocks on Thursday.
Out of this theme of allowing the Word of God to be the lamp unto my feet brewing from the beginning of the year, God has also revealed both a caution and blessing to me. The caution is my ability to render myself completely to God. My prayer this few days has been for God to help me overcome my pride, my fears, my insecurities, and throw my life away in complete abandonment to God, and allow His will and good work to overflow. For me who takes great pride in my own achievements and accomplishments, I find this really hard to do and I still have a lot to overcome. But the blessing that accompanies this warning is God’s promise of abundance, and there have been different people who have spoken, prayed and seemingly confirmed bountiful resources in my life.
I think this blessing and warning goes hand in hand. As I slowly learn to render complete control of my all to God, the realisation of this abundant resources will be made known to me.
Something new that God has spoken to me about on top of these three things is on the topic of fathers. I really don’t know what to write about this now, it’s still so new and fragmented in my mind. So far the only precursor to what God has installed for me on this area was written in my contribution to SisterhoodFTW’s Manday Monday post titled “Mandate”. Please have a read, and I hope that you will be edified by it. Because really, there is something brewing in my mind of epic proportions, and that post is just a tiny part of it.
Well I thought I would be able to time the conclusion of this post with the descent of as I leave the mile high zone, but alas I am now in the comfort of my own home as I finish typing this. It is now time to make these lofty mile high reflections into reality on ground zero.
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