Psalm 27 – Living Goodness

I think I should just do this Psalm a Day thing once a month so I can preclude my post with some sad excuse of always not remaining fully committed to this little project and endeavour of mine.

Nonetheless as a sort of prelude to this post as to why the following verse sticks out to me so can be attributed to my generally growing disconcertment with living my life now. It’s like if I’m not too careful with my steps I may end up living the safe, secure and comfortable life that I may very well be entitled too.

I do not doubt for one moment I am extremely blessed. Though I may (recently more frequently) complain about my relatively low pay, I know that I still am blessed being in a position that is secured without too much effort.

Yet I still think that is seemingly so pointless.

I’m going down this path of having a secure job, house, wife and 1.5 children one day. Live till I’m 90 and die probably quite happy and satisfied…. with comfort.

One thing that still gives met his faint glimmer of hope is that I know without a shadow of doubt that really all I need is God.

¹³ I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the LORD
In the land of the living. (NKJV)

I like it how David highlights that he knows he couldn’t have done it on his own without believing in God. And not just believing in God to show goodness to him now in this life. But in the next.

Why I say next?

My logical inference is this. We are living in a world that is doomed to die, it’s fallen and death abounds. And well, the assumption that heaven is the land of living, and that’s all David needed to continue to live this life on earth, thus actually bringing a part of the goodness that which comes from God.

And so for me, even if nothing ever works out for me by human standard, or if my life is filled with the recently popular internet meme of FML (google it, I in no way support this, even though it may be tongue in cheek…), regardless of that I know that I am secured in God’s living goodness!

Filed under: Cogitations, God, Psalm

Holding On

There are other things out there, seemingly better alternatives compared to the current circumstance that makes me wonder why am I still in it.

Was I blessed and fortunate that I have what I have now?

With the upcoming burden soon to constrain and limit, I never ever had to be so wary and mindful. My thoughts are consumed with how best I can circumvent it and degrade this metaphorical yoke to nonexistence in the quickest and most efficient way.

I could reach out for what is out there, that on paper is better than what I have now. But the future of it will hit a glass ceiling.

Where I am now, seemingly dead end, trudging along whilst feeling underappreciated, I know the upside is potentially limitless, and that is the faint glimmer of light that has enraptured my mind’s eye.

I’m banking on this last card. But is it really the last? If what is played from here on end does not bode well, then yes, quite possibly.

For now I will not heed that which is beckoning me, instead, with trepid determination, I’m holding on.

Filed under: Cogitations, Life